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Monday, February 24, 2003
theorizin' and devisin'
so my cousin has this theory. maybe its not so appropriate to put in such a public place, but who cares, no one but me and people that already know my business read this anyways. so here's her theory: not only am i slightly masochistic when it comes to relationships (well wait no... i do hankido... that can get pretty painful too...), but i also purposely go for guys i think are relatively safe. safe as in "dont know what the hell they're doing" or maybe safe as in "clueless about girls".
the reason for this is i was burned real bad by a certain dumbass who shall remain nameless-- otherwise i shall be thrown into a fit of rage and will regain the desire to kill this person through slow torture. anyways, this certain dumbass who so obviously knew what he was doing, and others who have followed suit, traumatized me to such a degree that i now have a subconscious attraction to guys that dont know what the hell they're doing. so-- no offense to any guy reading this that thinks he might be clueless, but-- that's pretty sucky.
where does that leave me? am i doomed to like guys that wont know how to react to my affection? will i ever get over this fear? or will i be caught between the proverbial rock and hard place, and just become asexual? i guess only time will tell...
